Monday, November 1, 2010

First of November

Wagon full of crenshaw pumpkins at Lonnie's auction Saturday morning.  It was a perfect fall day- frost in the morning, cool all day but bright and clear.  We auctioned all day, then I went to do the sidewalk painting with my kids in Burgaw, then drove back out to the auction.  All of us went out to dinner after it was over- out in Richlands, little restaurant like the country kitchen, waiters dressed for Halloween.  Food was ok- good fried chicken but to much sugar in the greens- I like mine bitter.

Today is a workday, I have been working at home all morning grading papers.  Then I am going to the doctor to see about upping the meds- there is no real reason why I should be so down except I was off my meds for a week, and it was like a train wreck.  Of course, everything happened during that week- nasty people at conference (how DARE you make me wait till last in the food line because I lost my stupid gold coin), midterms at school, messes at home... but am trying to get centered again and back in the swing of things.  I made an 85 on a paper- the lowest grade I've ever made in grad school (the only grade that wasn't a 100 so far, knock on wood) and that was my big-red-flag that I need to change something.  Everything else I know I'm not the best at- taking care of the house, managing money, keeping my temper when the kids get on my nerves (thank god for assigned seats!)...but school?  No way.  That is one thing that I consistently kick ass at so this was quite devastating.  Not to be dramatic, but yes- childish as it is- I did cry. And the 85 was well deserved- I had been  practicing all week but was writing in a rush last Sunday and managed to get my concepts all backwards.  Carelessness and lack of comprehension on my part..... vowing to do better, but it has me in a tailspin.

Ok. now that *that* confession is off my chest- I can continue on with a clear and open mind, get my butt in gear.  Doctor today, then to the middle school to work with Mille- she is resigning as lead art for the county and I've been appointed (yay. more work/responsibility- but on the upswing, it's good for the career and there might be a slight bonus at the end of the year...a nice sticker or something).  Afternoon I have to go to school to input my grades (can't get the stupid application to work from here) and clean my room for the workshop tomorrow.  The manz is over at Dad's painting the house- up on a lift, but I worry none-the-less.  It's a week long job (huge house!) so I know he will be tired when he gets home.

Halloween was good- I slept most of the day, talked to Mother (miss her!) and slept again.  Last night I stayed up and drew in my sketchbook, we watched CSI and I watched Paranormal Activity (scary movie!!!) while manz snored in his chair.  Lit the candle on the porch and left the bread out... good wishes to all, here and gone.